You tell yourself you’re not paranoid.
You’re practical.
You’re a man who built an empire out of patterns, and patterns don’t lie, not like people do.
Still, at three in the morning, standing in a glass mansion that reflects your own face back at you like a stranger, you feel the kind of silence that isn’t peaceful.
It’s the silence after a life has been ripped out by the roots.
It’s the silence that started the night Aurelia died, four days after giving birth to your twin boys, and never really ended.
Now it lives in your walls, in the shine of marble, in the way every room feels too big for a family that became smaller overnight.
You’ve got fifty million dollars of architecture and nowhere safe to put your grief.
Your sons are the only moving parts in a house that otherwise feels frozen.
Samuel is calm, steady, a little lighthouse of a baby with strong lungs and an easy sleep.
Mateo is the storm.
His cries come in sharp, rhythmic bursts that feel less like fussing and more like an alarm nobody can shut off.
His tiny body tightens like a fist, his face flushes, his eyes do something that makes the air in your chest turn to ice.
The pediatric specialist shrugs and labels it colic like that word is a blanket that covers everything.
But you don’t feel covered. You feel exposed.
Every shriek pulls you back to hospital beeps, to Aurelia’s fingers going cold, to doctors talking around you as if you weren’t the one losing a whole universe.
